Thank you!
Looking back at the months gone by, I never thought I would be in a “good place” again. A place of no pain and deep grief. Back in January, all I wanted to do is fast forward my life to December, with the hope that the pain would be lessor or gone.
I was so desperate for my heart to heal. The pain was so deep and my heart was hurting that I thought it might never happen. Every day, I prayed and thanked God for the healing - not my healing only but for our whole family. In the beginning, even though it hurt, I would look at Elizabeth’s photos and videos on most days. I would do this until it stopped hurting.Over the past months I read and listened to everything that would help me gain a greater understanding about death. It has brought great insight and I will write more about that in the future and about the many facets of grief.
I am so thankful to God, for healing my heart. Even though it feels that not much else has happened in my life in the past year, I can truly celebrate His goodness and faithfulness. The year has gone past so quickly, and it could have been different and I am grateful that it isn’t. I can hardly imagine that eleven months ago - today, we said goodbye to Elizabeth. I remain thankful for the privilege of having her in our lives. I am also thankful for the many prayers that sustained us. I have learned to value your prayers and remember how dependent I was on them. Thank you!
You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book. Ps. 56:8
So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. Isaiah 41:10
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A deeply reflective testimony on grief, God’s presence, and the quiet strength that carries us through unbearable loss. A story of saying goodbye, and being upheld by divine restraint in the darkest hour.